Hi everyone. Firstly I want to apologise for the inconsistent blogging. I could make excuses about not having time, being busy and so on, but frankly I have not really had or felt like I’ve had anything really worth posting about.
Since last year’s triathlon my training has been all over the place. Planning for my wedding and the nature of my job at the end of last year took over things and really since then I have not had the motivation to do much in the way of exercise. I mean I have been running and spinning but not seriously. The weight I lost last summer is back on although I am working the pounds back off slowly again.
Truthfully I feel a bit lost in myself. I cannot seem to get my a@*e into gear at all. Without sounding like self pity I am just really struggling to engage myself into the things I have previously really enjoyed doing. My fitness levels could be way better and I constantly tell myself every evening ‘tomorrow I will wake early and do some exercise / organise myself before work’ and yet the alarm goes, I hit snooze and sleep more as I wake up feeling shattered. (Although mornings have never been a strong point for me). My lack of motivation is even spreading to not doing simple chores at home. My flat is messy and I have become unorganised – something which isn’t usually me at all. I normally pride myself on a tidy and clean home and being super organised. These days I am literally waking up and taking each day as it comes. No planning, just nothing other than getting up, doing to work, eating and sleeping.
So I am going to say it, I have become LAZY!
Definition of me
I have become inactive, a plodder, I am slow and I feel heavy and dull. I am LAZY.
Actually writing this post is proving to be quite helpful. No one wants to be labelled or actually find they fit the definition of lazy do they?! I need to buck up my ideas, stop mopping about and feeling sorry for myself. I know that, and I guess by sharing this with you all its my way of making myself accountable. Time to take the bull by the horn and get on with life. So firstly I think the challenge for me right now (as my blog is challenge Kate) is to become proactive with my life and the rest should hopefully fall into place.
If any of you read this post and read it all they way down to here – thank you and I apologise for the self pity, lazy discovery. However, do any of you have periods where you feel this way? I would be interested to know.